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Tuesday, June 27, 2006 I have had such an incredible day. Below
I have included an e-mail I was writing to someone to whom I was trying to explain what I mean by "waiting on the Lord."
I'm not advocating doing nothing, just not doing something for the sake of trying to do something for God:.
I certainly do not preach a prosperity gospel nor do I
witness by the love of Christ only. And I certainly don't sit around doing nothing but praising the Lord and letting
him do some work somewhere. I come to Guatemala because he called me.
I go out every day and work among the people because he sends me. My life is a witness and a testimony to his love by
what I do, but in my heart I know it's not what I do because in me there is no good thing except Christ. Therefore it's
only him working through me that produces anything of value. And down here people are constantly thanking me for what
I do and I find it difficult not to correct them to thank God for what he's doing in me and through me. But make no
mistake, I have no plan that I cling to when I come here. He opens doors and takes me to places and uses me to accomplish
his will. Yes, I have to accept and follow his direction, but I still say he doesn't need me. I need him.
After I wrote this I decided not to send it until I had time to pray about it and how to finish it.
God took over. The rest of this e-mail details my day. It was so incredible!
OK, now
it's 4:30 in the afternoon and I'm back after a somewhat eventful day. Our focus is about witnessing and whether it's
about love or the law or a combination of both. And we’re back to the discussion of whether waiting on the Lord
is right or not. I don't think there's a right answer. Because I think it's in God's hands. I know you are
going to label me a Calvinist but that's OK. Please take just a few moments to read the following paragraphs and look
at the pictures so I can explain myself.
The plan
this morning was to go to a small village 15 minutes away from my home where I was to meet with a family who has a 14 year-old
handicapped son. They came to our office looking for help and we needed to go discover the circumstances. When
we got there, here's what we found:


The boy above is Michael Angel. He is 14 years
old and blind and also suffers from unknown neurological problems. He has not been to the doctor in 3 years. When
he went three years ago they simply said there was no way they can help him because the government hospital didn't have a
neurologist. So for 13 years he has been taking the same medication and has no physical therapy. Look at his hands.
The mother makes little woven bracelets that her
son sells on the street to the tourists for about $.14 each. She makes about 10 a day. The father makes a woven
greeting card that sells for about $2 each. They make very little money. I explained to the father and I had just
purchased two of the cards from a young boy on the street just three days ago and he replied "Yes, that's my 11 year old son."
I had known this young boy for over a year because he approaches me when I eat breakfast in the restaurant downtown and I'm
struck by his sad face. What a coincidence (Not) that this boy turns out to be their son! God is good!
We leave this family and our next planned stop is
with a girl about 23 years of age who lives about an hour away. I met this girl two months ago in a very strange series
of circumstances. I had flown to Guatemala and forgot to call for a ride from one of my guys
here. I figured I would just find a bus or a truck and rough it. So I found the bus which was almost full except
for two seats side-by-side which I happily took. This gave me room for my computer bag which is very large. Unfortunately
it doesn't last long when the bus made one final stop and a young woman with what I thought was a baby over her back along
with a two-year-old girl came and sat beside me. So much for comfort!
As we drove along I prayed about several things
I had returned to Guatemala to look into.
I needed to understand God's plan for bringing me back here so soon and was at a loss. I'd come back because I wanted
to buy or build a gas station here and had been praying about it but it didn't seem to be happening. I just suspected
God didn't want it. And then, just a week after I'd returned home from Guatemala
one of my guys here called to say that a property owner wanted to meet with me about a gas station. He was going to
build it and had all the contacts and experience. It was a great discovery! And so I was praying that this was
something God wanted to reveal to me.
As we drove along, the baby on the back of the woman
kept falling over onto my shoulder. I marveled at how she kept a baby on her back, sitting on the edge of the seat,
with her two-year-old daughter sitting on a small suitcase on the floor. I marveled that we drove three hours and the
little girl never spoke or cried or said a word. The baby had a kind of a knit cap on its head and after several hours,
it'd come off. At this point I noticed the baby's eyes were open but he didn't appear able to control his movements
or hold his head straight. And at that moment I realized there was a large scar on the baby's head.
I hesitated to speak to the young woman for several
reasons. The indigenous people are distrustful of Americans and other foreigners and they speak one of 30 some dialects,
sometimes not even speaking Spanish. And my Spanish is difficult at best; my comprehension is even worse. But
something led me to go for it (the Holy Spirit?) and so I asked her if there was something wrong with her baby.
She replied yes and we spoke for about half an hour, and I was amazed that I could understand so much of what she said on
a noisy bus with other people talking and laughing all around us. Anyway, to make a long story a little shorter, I told
her we might be able to help her and set up a meeting with Hector, one of my workers and she at her house. We met him
and went to her house where we talked.
At just a few months old, her three-year-old son
had had a bad brain problem and had an operation. Her husband had little work and they had little money and could not
afford medicine. After the birth of their second child the husband began drinking and soon after left altogether.
She found a job as a housekeeper two hours away from where her mother (and she) lived and she took it, even though it only
paid 400Q ($65) per month. They allowed her to keep her kids there and they fed her as well. However, there was
no money for her son's medical treatment.
The doctor of the foundation who saw her son charged
a very nominal amount of money for each visit. This along with the medication and therapy costs almost 400Q, the same
amount that she makes every month. There was no way she could make this payment and so for almost 2 years her son had
no treatment and was getting worse and worse. And that's when we met on the bus and we agreed to pay the money so she
could take her son to the doctor and get treatment, as well as buy the medication. And so we had. And today she
wanted to meet with me for a reason we didn't know. So off we went. Below are the pictures of the meeting two
months ago before the doctor, the medicine and the therapy:


The boy was paralyzed on his right side, couldn't
see and couldn't even hold his head up. After two months of seeing the doctor, medication and therapy here's what he
looks like today:

WATCH THE VIDEO!
Press the play button. You may have to click it several times. Watch for the word "buffer". Give it
a few seconds.
The video above shows
it well. He's holding his head up, standing up by himself on his two legs and even holding on to the hand of his young
aunt sitting next to him! She used to lay him on the bed, not worrying about him falling off because he couldn't turn
over or move much. Now she has to constantly be aware of him all night as she sleeps because he's able to turn and crawl.
He was able to group my finger with his right hand (the paralyzed one). But this is not what was incredible. It
was her story that she told us today.
When we arrived I was unsure as to what we were
going to discover. Many times when we offer help the people want more. They see us as "rich Americans" and know
that this is their only opportunity to tap into the money train. So we were prepared for this eventuality. But
it didn't turn out to be so.
The young woman's name is Santos.
Santos told us that she wanted to meet personally with me
(again this is very uncomfortable for me but this is her story) to tell me what had happened that day on the bus. As
I write this now I have to stop to cry because I'm overwhelmed by the blessing that God has chosen to give me, when I was
only his instrument. She explained to us (two friends of mine and their two daughters as well as Hector and myself were
present, as well as numerous of her family members) that she was sad and depressed that day. She was coming home for
the Easter week and she was thinking about her son whom she couldn't help because she had no money. She was dreading
coming home because her mother had yelled at her because she hadn't brought any clothes for the family when she had come home
the trip before. Even though she made little money they relied on her. Yet she couldn't even afford to buy the
medicine that would help her son.
She had prayed a great deal for months because she
was so needy of what she felt was a miracle. And now on this day, she was at the lowest point in her life. That
is, until God sent an angel to her on the bus that day (again, I'm no angel-I'm just telling you her story). As I sat
praying next to her, she sat praying next to me. Interesting isn't it? What a coincidence! (Not) I thought
I was coming to Guatemala to buy a gas
station but God had other plans. Anyway, she couldn't believe what was happening to her but she tried not to get her
hopes up because many people in the past had promised help and never given her any. And here I was, out of the blue,
like an answer to her prayer. I knew none of this at the time. As she told the story her mother listened.
Santos began to cry. When she told the part about her
mother yelling at her she cried more and had to stop. Her mother cried at that point as well and had to leave the room.
She told us she felt so embarrassed to be without a husband, without the ability to help herself and even unable to talk to
her mother about it. She cried throughout. Everyone in the room cried. It was an incredible experience.
So here we are two months later and we have her
bank account number and put money into her bank every month. We didn't do it because she was a Baptist (she isn't),
we didn't do it because she was a Christian (she was but we didn't know it); we did it because God wanted it to happen.
And she is so grateful. And she is blessed. And we are blessed. And we didn't do anything!
So we leave her house and Hector
tells me the rest of the story. As I said, my Spanish comprehension is not good and Santos was
crying and mumbling and had her hand in front of her mouth much of the time she was telling her story. I only sensed
the emotion but didn't understand the story. Now it was all the more touching as I understood the details of what I
just told you.
We talked about it a bit as
we drove to lunch. After lunch as is my usual custom I took everyone to the ice cream shop and bought them a cone.
When I say everyone I mean about a dozen people, mostly a bunch of the kids I know who sell on the street. As I was
standing outside talking to one of the older women in our ice cream eating group, the manager of the ice cream shop came out
to me. I only knew her casually from all the trips I had made to the ice cream shop, buying ice cream for all the kids
(OK and me too). And I always tip her as is my custom. But I had never talked to her about Jesus or anything else.
Anyway, she comes to me and asks if I'm an evangelical, which is another word for Christian here. I tell her yes and
she asks me if I will pray for her mother who is in the hospital with a brain problem. I tell her yes but I need to
have her talk to Hector so we can get all the facts and I go to get him. He is talking to someone else and so I go back
outside to wait. The manager tells me she has to go buy bananas and will be right back.
Meanwhile, the older woman I'd
been talking to had overheard the conversation with the manager. She to ask me if I was an evangelical and when I replied
yes, she asked if I would pray for her. She tell me she had just had a hernia operation and was having a difficult time
selling on the street with her three kids. I asked her if she was a Christian and she told me no. I spoke with
her briefly and then Hector walked up so I explained to him what was going on and he began talking to her in the native dialect,
which we're fortunate that he knows. Here are a few pictures I snapped after he had been with her for about 15 minutes:


She listened to what he had
to say and they went back-and-forth about several things. She didn't make a decision but that's not our problem (Calvinists).
Then we went inside to speak to the manager.
The manager told us that her
mother was 86 years old and had been in the hospital for eight days. She asked for us to pray for her. After we
took all the information and assured her that we would pray for her I asked her if she was a Christian. To my amazement,
she replied no and smiled. I said why not? Hector quickly said OK then forget it we’re leaving and pretended
to walk away. We all laughed and we assured her we would pray for her mother. It didn't seem the right time to
talk to her as there were people waiting for their ice cream cones. Hector and I decided to give her 200Q ($30) and
the Bible tract "This Was Your Life" By Chick Publications. I haven't heard whether he was able to talk to her when
he went back to give her these things.
When we were leaving I heard
someone call my name and looked to see a girl named Adelia. She had a brother named Otto who had gotten into bad company
and started doing a lot of drugs. I had him to my house and tried to talk to him about Christ and he had prayed to receive
Christ with Hector and Pedro and myself. Shortly thereafter he was at my house and stole some jewelry to buy more drugs
and I haven't seen him since. Anyway Adelia told me that he had gone straight and was going to church and was living
at their house again. I told her I wanted to talk to him and asked her if she had gone to church and accepted Christ
yet as I knew she was not a Christian last time we had talked…
Excuse me for the interruption
but it is now 6:43 in the evening and I'm back. Why? Because the blessings just keep coming! Coincidentally
(not) in the middle of the above paragraph about Otto… yes, he called me. He told me he is back in school, attends
church regularly and is very thankful to me and owes me so much. He thanked me for sharing Jesus Christ with him and
said that God has a plan for his life, that he is in his heart and that he is so thankful to have his life back. We're
having breakfast in the morning at 9 a.m.. A praise the Lord goes here!
Otto is pictured below before
his drug problem:

Anyway, to carry on the above
paragraph, I was asking Adelia about Christ and she told me no she hadn't accepted him. What an opening in the morning
as her brother, whom she saw lost his life and now appears to have found it, tells about how Jesus saved him from the drug
problem he had. We will see how God uses it but this is incredible!
Okay, now you should read my
opening paragraph from the earlier e-mail I wrote this morning. I'll reprint it here for your edification:
Written Tuesday, June 27, 2006 at 9 a.m.
I have no problem with you sharing any
of what we write. The only problem is it's so very difficult for anyone to understand everything that I believe when
we try to deal with certain specific aspects as you are learning.
I certainly do not preach a prosperity gospel
nor do I witness by the love of Christ only. And I certainly don't sit around doing nothing but praising the Lord and
letting him do some work somewhere. I come to Guatemala because he called me.
I go out every day and work among the people because he sends me. My life is a witness and a testimony
to his love by what I do, but in my heart I know it's not what I do because in me there is no good thing except Christ.
Therefore it's only him working through me that produces anything of value. And down here people are constantly thanking
me for what I do and I find it difficult not to correct them to thank God for what he's doing in me and through me.
But make no mistake, I have no plan that I cling to when I come here. He opens doors and takes me to places
and uses me to accomplish his will. Yes, I have to accept and follow his direction, but I still say he doesn't
need me. I need him.
So maybe you can't see
it and maybe the preachers can't either. My life is my witness and my testimony. I don't need to go out and knock
on doors, I simply wait on the Lord and go where he directs. There is nothing more liberating. There's no pressure,
no need to succeed and no agenda. I feel bad for your pastors because their sole mission is to get people to do things.
And I know how hard that is. But for me it's simple. I have learned to wait on the Lord. I have learned
to trust in the Lord. And I have learned not to lean to my own understanding. But the most important thing I have
learned is to acknowledge him in all things as he directs my path.
Let me say my most infamous
line again; I am a steaming pile of trash on the junk pile of life. I'm not good and I am not special. Except
in Christ Jesus. Because I'm an heir to the throne, a child of the King and a servant to the master. And in spite
of me, he accomplishes so much. In spite of me, so many people are blessed. And in spite of me, I receive the
richest blessing of them all!
I gotta stop now. I can't
take anymore blessings today! God bless you and let you know that I love you. And may God richly reward you for
your eager desire to understand him better, to serve him more and to do his will.
Below is an e-mail written in August of 2005 about Otto's drug problem
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Friday, August 19, 2005
At dinner tonight I saw an old friend named Otto who has helped us on many
medical missions. What I saw nearly broke my heart. Otto, a small guy to began with, had lost so much weight he looked almost
dead. in fact, I had to ask him his name as I couldn't believe it was really him. I invited him to join me and he explained
that he had lots of problems. That turned out to be the understatement of the year.
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Otto explained that he had family problems and needed some money. His family had locked him out of the house and he was behind
on his payments in school. Understand that Otto is probably the smartest kid I have met and speaks impeccable English. He
is about to graduate from his 12th year of school which is unheard of here. He will get a letter certifying him as a guide
who speaks English, a very sought-after position that pays well.
I offered him some food and he declined. I asked him if he had a drug problem and he said no. Several times I repeated
this question and he denied he had a problem each time. I suggested he go to our place, the Cisne, and talk with Hector.
He didn't want to. At that point the phone rang. It was Hector. I hung up after talking to him and explained that God
sent Hector to call at that very time. He agreed to go talk with Hector. I told him I would meet him there in 30 minutes,
after finishing my dinner.
30 minutes later I entered the Cisne and Otto was nowhere to be found. We began talking about him, figuring he wasn't
going to come when out of the blue he walk through the door. He sat down and the four of us, Hector, Pedro, myself and Otto
began discussing his problems. Pretty soon he admitted that he smoked marijuana and did crack as well. He admitted that
his family had locked him out of the house and that his problem was out of control. We all talked to him about help, but
Hector was the real tool as he came from this environment. After 20 minutes or so Otto prayed with the four of us to accept
Christ.
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After talking a bit, I discovered Otto is living in a crack house. During our witnessing I told Otto that he could stay at
my house, that I would delay my return to the United States, to help him get "clean". Since we are taking Pablito
and his family to the city tomorrow I invited Otto and Hector to spend the night with all of us at the house. 10 people!
But it was worth it to see Otto chow down on the food. Three sandwiches, potato chips, cookies and Sprite. He should sleep
well tonight! And tomorrow at 4:30 a.m. we take off for Guatemala City for little Pablito. Que bueno!
Needless to say, my plans to return home have changed since I now have a house guest! Please keep Otto in your prayers!
Friday, August 12, 2005
Well, I come to the end of another day. In the past couple of days we've accomplished several things, among them the
repair of the television here at the house. Now before you think that's no big deal, without that television I can't study
my Spanish videos or watch my DVDs on the Gospel of John, The Acts of the Apostles, and Peter and Paul. I really need the
TV! And it's fixed!
We have visited with Josefina and discovered that she and her brothers have a need for some uniforms for their school.
This is so exciting because a year ago, before Barbie and Trent got involved, these kids weren't in school. They just wandered
the streets. Now, Josefina is talking fluently, has friends and wants to wear the school uniform! And that is exciting!
Also, we have made tentative plans to begin the remodel of the old Baptist Church in preparation for moving our operation
out of our current building in the next six weeks. The pastor has graciously offered to allow us to use the old church rent-free,
saving us some $700 a month! We look forward to getting the remodeling underway soon.
The new Baptist Church is finished except lighting and the front doors. These doors are heavy wood and need time to dry
thoroughly. They won't be ready until next month. But the pastor has offered to move into the building in its unfinished
state so we can begin our remodel.
Tomorrow Hector and I go to the very poor village of San Pablo to visit our new English teacher in his class. Already
he has outgrown his small room for his morning class and meets at the local school. We are excited about the opportunity
to spread the gospel and teach these people English as well.
Also tomorrow we meet with an American nurse who resides in Panajachel, who has contacted us and offered her services.
She has several other project ideas and we're looking forward to what God has in store for this meeting. Check back for
more updates soon.
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Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Today was spent mainly studying for the article on unbelief. But one interesting thing did happen. I left at 5:00 p.m.
to go find dinner. And what did I find? My street was blocked off again midblock! I backed the truck 600 feet down the
street before I could turn around and tried to leave by the other direction towards the beach. Dead end again! So I tried
the last exit and was able to drive down the terrible dirt road to town.
Somewhat exasperated because again they have closed down my street and the smooth road to town, I am not thinking about
what I just wrote concerning my previous day's activities. You know, how that everything happens for a reason and we should
give thanks to God for all things--ALL THINGS! And so God has to show me again.
I'm driving along the river and I see a family of about seven people walking and carrying armfuls of firewood. So I asked
them if they want a ride and they gratefully accept. The women ride in the back seat and it turns out that they live across
the street from our place where we show the movies and teach English, which is (coincidentally) where I'm headed. And if
that isn't enough to turn your head just a bit, we are showing a movie tonight at our place to a church and these people just
happen to be members of the church, attending the movie tonight!
It's the little things...
Tuesday, August 9, 2005
The past few days have been mostly uneventful, just trying to catch up on sleep (the flight here left at 11 p.m. Sunday
night and arrived at 5 a.m. Monday morning) and unpack. But today had some interesting moments.
I was driving to see my friend Julio to discuss a piece of equipment he needs for his business. I have decided to eat
at a Chinese food restaurant in the town of Godinez, near where he lives. On the way there I remember that I only have American
money and there are no banks in Godinez, nor do I know where any banks are on the road there. But God does!
As I'm driving I come across some men working in the road and they have a detour. Darn! What a hassle! Oh well, gotta
go that way. So as I drive to the detour which takes me and my bad attitude through the town, I come upon-you guessed it-a
bank! And so I was able to change my money and eat Chinese food. Praise God?
I know, I can already hear many of you saying God is too big, too busy to get involved in these minor aspects of our life
like where we eat and if we have money. You think there is no way God brought this to be. You think "There he goes
again, trying to put God into every situation." YES! Is this incorrect?
Ephesians 5:19 "...Sing and make music in your heart to the Lord, 20 always giving thanks to God the Father for
everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ."
Have I gone too far? Everything? EVERYTHING? Yes, everything. That means if there had been no bank we even thank God
for that. You see, it's His plan not ours. Just because we don't like it or understand it doesn't mean we can change it.
It.. is.. His.. plan. Jesus said in Luke 22:42 "Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not
my will, but thine, be done." Father, here's what I want but I accept that it's not about what I want but what you want,
so, you're will be done.
So, whether you like it or not, everything, EVERYTHING comes from God either directly or indirectly. That is why we are
told in Romans 8:28 that all things work together for the good. That means good things and bad things are woven together
by God so that ultimately they turn out to be good for we who are the called, according to His purpose. ACCORDING TO HIS
PURPOSE. And so, I got my Chinese food by God's hand. Ha!
Anyway, that wasn't the end of God working in the day. As I continue driving two families flagged me down for a ride.
They piled into the back and we drove to Godinez. When I let them off we had brief conversations about how much they should
pay etc. After the few minutes that we spoke I began to leave to have my Chinese food and I looked up and saw Josefina at
my window. If you don't recall, she is the girl that Barbie and Trent "adopted" and have been providing for. I
rolled down the window and spoke with her, asking if she would like to have Chinese food with me and she said yes. She got
into the truck and I turned around to go to the restaurant. When I looked to my right I saw the pastor of the Godinez church
looking at me with a big smile on his face. Remember, this is the same pastor (coincidentally) whose church I took the woman
with the heart attack to.
Now again, some of you will say this is a marvelous coincidence. But let me put this into perspective. Godinez is a
small town, much larger than the villages that we go to but still certainly small. It has a gas station and numerous businesses,
along with many streets and residents. There are many people wandering the streets going about their business. Josefina
lives close to where I stopped but the church is several blocks away. Why was Josefina there? Why was the pastor there?
How about this? "...always giving thanks to God the Father for everything,... not my will, but thine, be done...."
Could it be? Was it possibly God's will that I should speak with the pastor and Josefina on this day? In a word: Yes.
We went to the restaurant and the pastor and I talked about faith and miracles. He told me that the woman who had the
heart attack is fine, thanks to God. And if God had chosen to take her, that would have been fine too. I told him that it
was difficult for those of us from the United States to understand this. He responded that the difficulty really applies
to many people in the whole world. And then he said something several of you have talked about. When we have other options
besides God we use them first. If we have money we can buy ourselves out of situations. If we have good medical care we
can use doctors and hospitals to get ourselves out of situations. If we have alcohol or drugs we can use them (temporarily)
to get ourselves out of problems. If we have psychologists or counselors we can use them to excuse ourselves from problems
(temporarily). But when you have nothing and no one there's always the last resort; the one who gave His life so you could
live. The one who wants to give you life more abundantly. How unfortunate that that is the way we look at things.
I don't want to be too preachy here so I invite you to read the article on unbelief which is coming soon to the web site.
I'll apprise you when it is available.
And so the day ended. Just how God had planned it? At least just how God intended it. And we thank Him for it!
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